Silenced (Mates for the Raskarrans Book 5) by Heather Fox

Author:Heather Fox [Fox, Heather]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Prospect and Raven
Published: 2022-03-26T04:00:00+00:00

The mood about the village does not lift much. Darran’s brothers are sullen and displeased. More than once, I notice them looking at the females in almost an accusatory way. My Carrie does not reappear during the afternoon. Lorna takes two plates of food away from the fire during the evening meal and does not return.

I do not blame my female for hiding away. It is what I have done in many circumstances. But I find I miss being able to glance across the gathering, glimpsing one of her sweet smiles. The buzzing in my headspace does not cease, and I wish to go to her hut, to knock on her door and see that she is okay. But even if I had Rardek’s skill with words, I do not think I could explain to Darran’s aggrieved brothers how my doing so is any different to Larzon’s actions.

So I sit in my seat, not engaging. Grateful that at least I do not have to look upon Larzon’s angry face.

When night falls, I am as restless as I was previously. For a brief time, I work on my project, my gift for my Carrie. I have gathered the leather I will need from our supply, choosing toughened pieces that will survive much use. I have cut them to size and begun the process of securing them together, all the time thinking about what design I will cut and stamp into them. My grandfather could create the most beautiful pieces - delicate swirls and patterns worked into the surface of the leather. I do not have his talent, nor do I have close to the number of hours he dedicated to honing his skills, but I will be able to make something. I have spare off cuts to practise on first.

But I find my concentration is lacking. It is not just that the dark is not ideal to work in. It is that my heartspace will not settle. I keep thinking of my Carrie and it will not be reassured until I have seen her face. That she is okay.

It is as though as soon as I have decided not to keep my distance, I have become addicted to her closeness. I think perhaps I have always known this would be the way of things, that this knowledge in part kept me away from her. Better to never have a taste than to have one and then be refused another. You cannot miss what you have never had.

And yet, this feeling I have now of missing her - I think I have always known this, also. There has always been a hole in my heartspace in the shape of her smile.

The urgency to see such a smile, to ensure that she is not too badly troubled by Larzon, grows overwhelming. With everyone else in their beds, I am free to walk around the village without being observed. I could go to her hut and Darran’s brothers would not be aware, and therefore they could not challenge me about it, or judge.

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